Bumps and Bruises

She looks so proud! We are very proud!
Nana came to town this past week. Abigail and Nana had a lot of fun together.
She has scooted herself backward right under our bed.

It is crazy to think Abigail is already half a year old! We are having so much fun. I use to think I never wanted her to get big, but the bigger she gets the more fun she gets. She is to the stage of bumps and bruises. She has aced sitting up, but now she can go from her belly to sitting up. This causes much action when she is in the crib, which means a lot more head bangs. She is pretty tough though. She is trying to crawl, she will put two arms out and try to go forward when she is sitting up. I love that she is trying to get closer to me when I am sitting on the floor. However, I will enjoy eating, reading or doing whatever else on the floor without her exploring, eating, and ripping into it. :) Right now I would explain Abigail as a little firecracker, just because she is exploding developmentally so much. We read every night before bed now, and she truly loves it. I sit her on my lap, and she looks at each page intently, every once in awhile she wants to touch and taste. Then, I pray over her and she goes to bed. Oh, the blessing and gift of being a mother.


On a more serious note:
As most of you know I will be graduating in May and that gives me the freedom to get a big girl job! However, I have never had more of a heavy heart with making the decision if I will begin working or if I will be staying home with Abigail. Justin and I have been searching this out, and as of right now financially it looks like we need my extra income. We will have to move out of our apartment come May because Justin will not be able to take classes and I will be done. Our rent will be more expensive and we are not sure where we are even headed. Each day we keep telling eachother, we must live DAY BY DAY BY FAITH! Faith is something that has always come easy to me, but with this, it has been truly difficult. I guess I want the best of both worlds. I would love to work, but I would love to be home with my baby girl. I feel more pulled to stay home, but then I also feel guilty because we spent 3 years of our lives in Fort Worth so I could get an education to work, and now I am not even sure if I am going to work. It may be a pride thing.... Then, there is the other side, if I work I will feel guilty for not being the one who is raising and training up my daughter. I hate the thought of someone else seeing my baby wake up from her naps, seeing her crawl and getting into things, smiling and giggling, bumping her head and me not there to comfort her. As my graduation day gets closer I only become more heavy hearted. I hate that I do not have anywhere close of a direction of what the best thing is for our family. It is just funny to think that back in the summer of 06 we had our lives all planned out, and nothing has gone the way WE HAD PLANNED. I can laugh in this because God is constantly reminding me that He truly directs us and guides us....So please join me in prayer. I ask that you reply with a specific day and time you will put aside to pray for us. It will give me strength to know I have fellow believers lifting us up in prayer and fighting with us as we face this hard decision.